also i guess now i can check “travel across multiple state lines with a felony quantity or marijuana” off my bucket list

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I’m in the process of dragging most of our stuff out into the alley and I feel like I’m going to regret this, but it’s too late now. I’m going to miss St Louis but it’s not the city itself making me second guess myself. I think it’s the whole having our own space and the security and how comfortable I am with her in this room. I kind of feel like going back to Texas is going to erase everything that led up to us being in this room together right now and even though I didnt like that parking garage, I dont want to be disconnected from it.. I worry the drive back really is our last adventure and now we have to settle into this new realm of shitty and serious adulthood. I’m not going to be in my space anymore and I’m going to have to put up with small talk and visiting and barking dogs and everyone up my ass about what the doctors say and what the insurance company is doing and the stress of all the lies ill have to tell to remain stealth. I’m worried I wont get this surgery and this entire upheaval will have been pointless. I used to be so excited about new places, new things, the unknown,..I’ll get over it.

I just dont like feeling like once we leave I wont know how to be myself and I’ll be even more unsure of what to do with my life. I dont want to go back and deal with the way I left.

I’m also having a hard time dealing with the fact that none of my IRL “friends” in Texas (with the exception of ren and someone else) have bothered to make plans to hang out, or even ask me how the fuck I’m doing. People I’ve known for years and have gone out of my way for over and over again. 

I dont know how im supposed to fit this shit in the car.

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the only domestic instinct my parents have managed to pass on to me is the tendency to hoard multiple plastic bags in another plastic bag despite the fact that I will probably never need this many plastic bags in my adult life

(via trashfaery)

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Today I applied for several full time jobs in my field rather all over the place. The one I want to apply for most, however, is a Smithsonian position which is federal and I have to get a Selective Service exemption before I can apply because I’m trans, and the paperwork says that can take up to…

If you’re pressed for time you could just sign up if your documents say you’re male. Leave it to the military to make you exempt in the event of an unlikely draft.

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Hysto coverage when you’re listed as male

I’m legally male (8 yrs on T) and will have Cigna insurance on August 1st, but I dont know what my group is or any of that info until my order shows up in their system. I need a hysto pretty quickly and I’m wondering how hard it was for people to get theirs covered as a male, how long it took, tests needed etc. I’ve already had a pap, ECC, and cervical biopsy. Theyre wanting to do an endometrial biopsy next and there’s no way I can put myself through that, so I’m going to be meeting with a GYN to discuss a hysto as soon as my policy goes into effect. I’d appreciate any advice/information/tips/links etc. I’m googling like crazy and not getting the answers I need. I’ll be in Dallas, TX.

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Hey so, remember that UN school that all the displaced Gazans fled to for shelter?

Israel just bombed it.

Dozens dead so far, nobody is sure just how many.

What are you going to say now? That the bloody UNRWA was firing rockets at…

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